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uselessme

I am classified as severe clinically depressed. I have BPD (borderline personality disorder) and they are looking into if I am bipolar (I do not think so). And anxiety issues. I have ZERO self esteem (big surprise based on my username). I have HUGE abandonment issues. I have attempted suicide numerous times - but none "recently".... I hate life and see NOTHING good in it. I have fantasies about crashing my motorcycle on purpose or driving my car into a cement pillar or simply under a semi-truck..... Doubtful that I will be here in a year. Hanging is also becoming a fantasy of mine.

I am sick of me…………..

by uselessme 11/5/2013

written by uselessme

I am in a real dark mood. Yesterday was real crappy and I could just feel myself plummet into darkness. Everything just seems like s___ or absolutely no positives can even be found/felt.

All night long I had dreams about hanging myself….. It is with a 100′ orange electric cable that I have in the basement…. how to tie it off, how to make a functional noose, where to hang it. How to position the chair so you can not undo it……

Yet I know that I have been in this place before and I probably do not have the balls to go through with it.

I am […]

11/5/2013 2 comments