I’m drunk so if any of this is kind of drunk sounding… lol
I spent the last 8 months planning it. Now someone I thought was gone is back in my life. Kind of, anyway. Don’t know what I should do. I set everything up. I made sure everything would be as hard as possible to fix and get put back together in my life so I couldn’t chicken out. Even if I an turn it around, what would be the point? Is there even a point to life, or a place in it for someone so screwed up?
Hollow smiles and empty days
Fading light and lonely nights
A struggle to find what’s been lost
A fight that never ends
Watching time slip away
I’m just trying for one reason right now, but I already fucked everything up in my life. Symptoms are getting worse, and the worst time of the year is coming up again. Fun.
Stupid idiot
Im lost. Feel like life just flipped upside down and idk what is going on or which way is the way outta here. I don’t know if it matters.
More materials have also mysteriously disappeared in the last week. I don’t know where they’re going or if it’s nice and sunny there, but it’s getting increasingly difficult to finish this project. Still have lots of paper. Maybe there’s a way to make walls out of that.