I want to die.
My blades aren’t enough. Alcohol isn’t enough. Any sort of pain isn’t enough. I just want to drop off the earth forever.
I’m done with trying, I don’t want to ‘wait’ for things to get better. Everything is just way too much, the anxiety attacks, the stress, the schizophrenia is becoming way too vivid. Sleepless nights with endless sad thoughts are what my life has become. The worst part is, I am only 15. This shouldn’t be happening. Why is this happening? I feel as I’m choking on the air I breathe. It won’t go away.
I’ve tried to kill myself many times before. […]