I caught genital herpes seven and a half months ago. Most people don’t have symptoms; most of those who do have mild symptoms. I have constant symptoms. I was already unhappy before I caught this. Now I have lesions on my penis most of the time and I will be contagious for the rest of my life. Sex was about the only thing that made me feel whole. Now I can’t have sex without feeling guilty and frightened. The outbreaks won’t stop and when they hit I lose all will to live.