When one looks at them selves in the mirror, what are they really looking at? Their true selves? Or an Idea of ones self? I have been looking At an idea of myself my entire life. Holding myself on a pedastool, thinking that I am a genuine person with no flaws. But living a lie is what has caused my pain. What I am always looking at is different to another s eye. Over the last few months I have been trying to understand the bad, all the flaws that de-beautify my self image. Yeah looking at the ugly can disgust ones self, but its […]
I have been fighting depression for 3 years now. I have made attempts, but always failed. My doctor claims I am a walking miracle. But I truly don’t want to be like this. I don’t want to die I know in my heart I truly don’t. I just cant shake this feeling of despair. Like I cant ever be happy, Ive been trying for 3 years! sometimes Its hard to convince myself that I’m stronger than suicide. And Lately, Its been more of a challenge. I want to get better, not waste away in the dirt. Ive sought help, but I feel almost worse about […]