“maby i should just let the sun engulf to world” said the god of man kind filled with a pashion for life but he did not have time for a evil race to the girl siting next to him “but if you give up it meens that you will never over come your proplem” the god looked at the girl and smilled “this is true” he says and reterns to wach theerth tern the towns and citeys sending up a yellow light on the night side but on the other green and blue could clerely be seen the question is when is the line to scrap it all and take the […]
my frend billey do you think if i ran fast dead qwick dead strate i could out run my problems and have a famaly on the run no said billey this life is to tough you will never run fast enugh your to fat to tall to skiney to smallto dertey to cleen to nice to meen TO ANGREY TO SAD TO HELPFULL TO NICE NOT NEEDEY CANT YOU SEE IM FUCKING BLEEDING IM LOSEING ALL FATH AND CONTROLE WHY DO I BOTHER
why i dont know
this feeling inside the rumbaling under my skin the end less yelling the loss of my sane mind is driving me to my destruchion and end i thought i had goten rid of this it what ever thoughts are inside of me i thought that i was better but all i can feel is down and dark and lowly agggg
or maby im just plane old stupid ugly and mad :/
siting awake in the light of the dark
the red is black and the blue is green
this worlds fucked up
my eyes are all backwords
i ofer my self up to people to help them
and thay push me in to the dirt
i gess iv got to leren that im fucked up
i gess iv just got to lern were to stand when the bombs fall
i gess it was a good thing stoping the bleeding
the drugs and the smoking
cos the colers are right
and my dreems are reel
my light my life is real
i love you all this place a place of deth and self harm is were i grew and fownd my one love i love her and were planing are life together if your looking for a sine not to die tonight or any other if you need profe that theres hope out there well my brothers my sisters my famaly i love you we all are hope
are name is hope and i love you all
iv done it agen iv fallen in love why am i so esey im finding nower days that im protending to be happy cos iv given in iv got my life now so i should be happy right wrong i still think of it to this day i have the razor i think one day ill smile and trow it away or one day ill smile shy away some were smoke some weed and take a pill and slip away… nice isunt it the thort but if like me you have died once youill know its not pece full the first 5 secions yes but […]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JxPj3GAYYZ0
“would you know my name if i saw you in heven”
rip to
tom royle marens ika shot in the chest a frend of a frend is a frend of mine
lans corp “head” kia ied my dear frand and felow spec ops sloger see you soon
pt “hanabul” kia ied wash your fucking socks you smeley **** hugs and kissis
st “shoutey” kia shot in head well sarg im in your place now so there love you rely
pt “hulk” stw shot in lower ab bled out love you man just dont hug me you still stink of swet probs
jake suicide you shot your self infrot of me i love you and i under stand why you did it
katey suicide […]
whats wong with me me evrey thing i see and feel seems to explode in to a ball of self hate and biter rage is there eney thing left for me here in this world with out hope its like i die evrey night i feel dead im sick of the same old shit that piles its self up on my door srowndid in a room one windo a gutar for fuck sake i cant see the floor for all the shit that i cant be botherd to cleen up is this how im going to live my life hevey metel and the cach frase of cant […]
its seems everything i knew about the human race the people i’m growing up with the people i look up to the ones that leer over me are all… i can’t rely explain it to be honest its like there cross’t between 2 faced and volatile or in the case of my peers just plane violent i look arrowed and everyone i know it seems purely sexually driven like its the only thing they want need desire is sex and frankly i think it’s a bit floored coos if that’s all you can think of what’s the fucking Pont what do you think… pray tell […]
we wonder this earth born with no one put in are laps no one is given to us as are right we wish it was but in the end we haft to fight throw the shit and the pane the bully’s and the heart break all for what a wiled goose chase but the goose chase that we are all on Leeds some were we just haft to run little faster jump a little hirer grow wings and fly do the imposable prove the girls and the boys from school that they are all wrong that we can out live there hate that we can […]
whats the objtiv to this if we as suicidel nuts get what we whant its a short sharp bang to the head and deth what dos it feel like ill tell you hit you head agenst concret and thats what it feels like i know this cos if it wernt for the helmit the bullit fird from the ak would of killd me so what happuns well letme lay the seen
you sit in a dark room contomplate you deth lision to a song you feel conects you lode you gun you cry you cry some more you put the gun to your head you stop […]
well this could be it my life sumd up in 4 words hard work pane and deth iv had it but i gt t keep trying but i dont whant this its stupid im so lonly im so hurt my freds duiying or killing them selfs its like on a song when on evrey new bar some els i know diys falls in to a pit of deth iv had it i dont whant this but iv got to find her iv gt to go on thats what thay wuld f whantid fr me but it dosunt happund that way
if i to lode my life in to a bag and leve firstly it would be a verey small bag but manly i know it wuld be to g some were to die a wood some were or a river or go rownd to a frends befor i go to my chosen place to diy and rember happeyer times and its fritaning how esey it is beeing in the miltrey to get a gun a browning 9mm thats if i was going to shoot my self would be the gun the gun that saved my life doing me one last favor taking me out of […]
i wish i could tell you the truth but youd hate me forevre so i try find exsusis to talk to you and grantid some of them are pritey petetic but its all i dear do this could go horably wrong but at the same time it could be the best thing in the world i hope if you reed this you will never know but at the same time i whant you to but i dont but i do its all fuckt up if you look at it but hay thats my life for you fuckt up a mess… lacing a sens of yer […]
i dont know how to funchion inside a sicatey with…. well i dont know how to describe it im a skiney ugly kid who has come to see hes lonly as fuck and just whants a stabel relashion ship that dosunt revolv arownd sex befor he gets killed in a war zone or something im fed up with life and the why i feel like im constantly geting the shourt end of things i feel like some times when i liy on the red carpit nere the door next to the old trane set a cigret in my hand n0 top i rember every time […]
oh darlin girl
time a callin
tears are forming
on the shit stand on my heart
your killing me
with you silents
but hun dont you dare cry for me
iv been in a war
and i killd a man with bare hands
to keep what i thort safe and sownd
but all the things monting up
just one more cut to end my lonly life
my lonly life
and i
havent herd form you sins
you said you loved me
you said you cared
sins you when and never came back
and all the shit is packing up
to end some one elsis life
and […]
i think now why didiunt you lison to me
iv been here to long iv been posting on this site for to long iv been wrong in the head for to long iv had a lack of controle for to long i been alive for to long im sick of all the cunts and asortid mother fuckers telling me you have s0o much to live for bull shit iv got a broken heart an hole partey of people who hate me and i shit hole for a life and you know whats the worst thing is its the fact that ill wight this and things will stay the same im stuck in a rut […]
she sill hasunt replide to my emaleand im worred cos if she has i know its my folt like evrey thing but hay cigrets my slow suicide :/ spending my night up in bed with blood evrey ware and the bules streming from my gutar and you know what im frustratid in sevrel ways sexyaly frustatid im frustatid with love and with life what could get wors well my baby girl isunt talking to me i know she is on the other side of the world but we have a strong relashion ship and i will get there or get her here some how some […]
my frends had prom today its all over facebook… i didunt go… i dont even have a girlfrend to hug or a frend… im the sad lonly kid who knw one whants to help cos it will bring them down… crying my eys out chane smoking… this is something i will regret for the rest of my life i startid to cut agen… my dad says im nothing and you may be reading this now thinking “but im your frend” well thank you for that but idk when your siting in your room smoking with asleep playing havent been out for days no money stragly […]