why i dont no

so thats it the end of the line a mentel hospitel were i whont be abel to talk to aney one on here im going to miss you all i love you so my plan if! something gos worng and i get down to that sorter level that i dont whant to live im going to take the wier razore or something and end it i love you good bye it panes me to go but i haft to and im crying my eyes out cos i dont what to do it but i haft to

ples if you have time coment on this i whant this to be the […]

do that for me will you just love your selfs

ta ra my beatefull broheres and sisters

love you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

she calld me… amasing when i know its not true but i whant it to be true

“self”
skin parting blood
boling steel gleeming …
tears flowing
seed of self destruchion
ever sowing
love of your self never lifting
all way spining out of controle
out of proporsion
never stoping
all ways been there
never seen the truth
of it the dry blood craking
the wet staning
what a lovely day

here is something beauteful about stating somehting…. that is blatanly cleer
waking up next to some one
in the erly houres
… feeling and lisoning to there slow deep breths
feling the wormth of there body next to you
the fresh smell of a new some how alean day
or waking up on your own
in a dark room l
it by the gray chinks of light from the fadid un seen sun
with the smell is tea and air asole
over powerd by the eye wortaring smell of stale cigaret smoke
its like its formd a skin arownd it a thin vale so thin […]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0HYiaYyfp8Q

all gon

all lost

all things

cut to the bone

sink in deep

send my sole to the dark

good luck in reeding the note

cos you know i cant spell

you know i never will

you no i cant take it

YOU KNOW IV HAD ENUF

take it to the limit to the limit one more time

the thing that kills me evrey time

seeing you smile and jokeing

kills me evrey time

if music had a music form then the trees and hills would be staves all that was would make much more sens life would flow the staves and ther would be no time sinicher no set tempo nothing that the lernid man sets out after the years i spent trying to “lern and studey” music it all seems pont less now that i know music has no way of beeing i cant wight a song and put it in a catagorey cos its not abel to its what you think it is there are some people who will inevetably disagrey and say well music is […]

look at me

look what you did

you forst my in to a black cold pit and here im keept

you vile act

the liys you told

how you got me drunk at 12 years fucking old

how you came in to my room you then you mate

cant you see the pane the memorey

was i the only one

well you broke me

im the damigd goods of this erth

no one will know and i know if i got in to something

i would hafe to liy

cos no one would have me

no one would see me

id be alone

damigd goods is what the label says

the one stuck in my mind

the one that thay’ll put on me if […]

up up down

all the time falling falling

calling for help

life is like a broken record and poetey

the only thing that keeps me still

wile the world falls down arownd me

if iv still got something to hold on to

if thers something worth it

worth evrey thing i do

i live on a island of pece when i have a pen in my hand and a thort in my head

i dont care what you think you will neve be abel to explane how it feels

and people think we wight about soft things

but no its raw and gritey and pure all at the same time

how it makes us fell well as i […]

whats worong oh its a long storey… that gos on to this day and befor and after the pane is like a monalog from a play or a poim

“is this a dagger i see befor me” yes the same one that is going to kill you and has cut your arms
“if i shuod diy think only this of me” that no one cared
“love me sweet rosalind” cos no one els will
“he liys slane” by his own hads lets leve the bodey

the resons go on

love xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

now look what i did now do you see why i hate my self my arms look like iv been hit by a lawn mower the blade looks like iv merde some one with it i hate my self so much

It’s sad, so sad to be alone
It’s sad, so sad to be alone
No friends to help you, no family no home
It’s sad, so sad to be alone

The dusty road calls you, come again
The dusty road calls you, come again
The dusty road calls you, you walk till the end
It’s sad, so sad to be alone

You look at other people through your tears
You look at other people through your tears
They know nothing of sorrow, of saddness or fear
It’s sad, so sad to be alone

You sit and sing in darkened rooms
You sit and sing in darkened rooms
Your […]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IFD9TmlcPx0&feature=endscreen&NR=1

my name is willam lewis and i hate this guy me im in a internal battel with my self not stoping no ending i dont under stand why all i know is

the guy i hate the man who fuck me up me i hate the way i hate my self the way i cant stop heting my self and a feel the despret need to diy why am i like this i dont know all i know is that this guy….. me is a ****

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SKg0VSoDdxI

ill start well if im honist im feling like a bad of shit iv got a gcse music tomorow but iv been thinking bout what people have been saying and i feel shit this song reflects it i think and the humer in it makes me feel a bit beter but aney way i was thinking to night if i died i wouldent haft to fill one more form sit an exsam and it would all be gon away and forgoten i hate my self for the shit im doing to my self in genrel i hate myself

aney way how do you feel tonight and […]