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whyohwhy1113

17 year old girl who enjoys ocean waves and wants to die.

my parental units

by whyohwhy1113 3/11/2015

written by whyohwhy1113

I snapped at my step mom today and I feel like a total ass. It was for something so minor I don’t even know why I did it.

I just feel so guilty all the time for everything. I feel guilty for taking up space for living.

I just don’t deserve it. I’m such a horrible fucked up person. My “friends” who were once my biggest supporters turned against me and started saying these horrible things about me. I believe them. I hate myself so its easier to believe the bad over the good. I can’t take compliments.

I’m sorry this is so long. I hope you’re having […]

3/11/2015 1 comment

I’m so tired of “trying”

by whyohwhy1113 3/10/2015

written by whyohwhy1113

I just recently was discharged from a psych ward. This was my second hospitalization. I’m still suicidal and have been for a long time. My parents told me today that I need to “try harder to be happy.” I’m just sick of hearing shit like this.

I just feel like dying, how am I supposed to stop all of a sudden. I just don’t understand their logic. I’ve been struggling with depression and self harm for about 8 years now (since I was 10 years old). And haven’t felt happy to be alive in about 2 years. My suicidal thoughts / planning have increased and became […]

3/10/2015 4 comments