What scares me the most is how calm I am. How calm I am right now, and also how calm I was earlier this evening when I went out to do it.
Literally 45 minutes ago I was in a wooded area in a field, scarf tied both around a tree and around my neck. But I chickened out. It was weird, walking towards that place I felt no fear, regret, doubt. There was no inclination I would back out, intact I actually stood still at one point and said to myself ‘look, if you don’t want to do this turn around right now, I won’t […]