I am a useless c**t. I am greedy, stupid and selfish. I have no friends. I am a liar. I am a disgusting waste of space. I am completely worthless. I am morally and spiritually bankrupt. I am lazy. I am wasteful. I have no respect for anything. I am a parasite. I was/am delusional. There is absolutely no reason for me to continue living. I have no future.
I have no one left to turn to. I’m living day to day wrapped up in the web of lies that I spun. I’ve hurt everyone I’ve ever known. My future doesn’t exist. I have a plan. I’m going to spend my savings on a plane ticket to the South Pacific and kill myself on a desert island. I’m 90% there.. just a month or two more with the people I Love.