I know any old timers who are still alive seeing my user name may be shocked to see that I’m still alive. I have been through every pain a person can survive. I wish I could have ended it 15 years ago when I wanted to. People tell you that things will get better. Get therapy, get medication, you’ll get better. Truth is that life gets harder. The only thing that can make you better is happy delusions. I cannot resign myself to delusions no matter how pleasant. I wish I could. In fact because I am still to scared to resign myself to death. […]
