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wormfood

Just a small town girl, living in a lonely world... I've done a lot, I think, with my life but nothing ever satisfies. Everything is empty and meaningless. I failed at suicide about 17 years ago so now even that seems pretty hopeless because I realize I might not go through with it. I've spent most of my life depressed and suicidal though so to me it would be courageous to finally get it done. The reason I didn't go through with it then, was fear of the unknown and concern that my family would blame themselves. Now I am married and I don't want to hurt my husband. I am also a doctor and I fear that if I kill myself, some of my patients could be triggered to do the same. Somehow though, it sometimes helps to seriously contemplate it, plan it and just have it as a back-up plan so I feel like at least there is some possibility of escape from this fucked up world. Its weird but suicide actually feels like Hope! I bet some of you know what I mean. Thanks for reading.

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by wormfood 7/8/2015

written by wormfood

Hi everyone,

I’m new to this site and just found it after searching for some ideas for suicide methods online. Interesting that this site does not allow that but my search brought me to a post that talked about some interesting ideas.

Anyway, I don’t know where to start. I’m in my mid 30’s and have been suicidal since I was about 15, depressed all my life. It certainly makes life pretty fucking meaningless when everything you experience feels negative and full of suffering. I don’t know why I am like this and I thought it would stop when I was done with my teen years but […]

7/8/2015 3 comments