My family is use to me being this strong person and think I will make it through but the truth is I’m not strong. The force that drove my strength is gone my ex and kids I hurt so bad know that I’m forced to look from the outside in. I will do anything to change it bring them back. I can’t do this anymore. If home is where the heart is I’m as long way. From it. I don’t want anyone else I just want my life back without that why live. I’m not strong I’m human I care I hurt I bleed. They […]
Today I woke up and realized how unhappy I really am. The pain I feel is so intense that it hurts to the core of my being. I sit here and look at the walls so much grief here I lost so much my home my kids my ex my life. Its all gone and I don’t have another start over in me I really don’t. Ending this life is all I have left. I simply can’t do this anymore . I have made my final plan to just end it. I can’t live without my family anymore I failed them and myself. No […]