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xashlerzx

My Sob Story…

by xashlerzx 10/10/2016

written by xashlerzx

I’m pretty sure no one will read this anyways but, for those who do, welcome. I’m sorry in advance if I sound bitter or whiney or if I complain too damn much but I need to get this out… The longer I hold all this pain in, the more it rips me apart from the outside…

I say from time to time that I’m good at hiding how I feel but that’s not really true. I’m good at hiding I’m suicidal and weird… But I can’t myself look happy or act it anymore. I can sometimes and there are times that are easier than others but […]

10/10/2016 2 comments

I think I’m going under…

by xashlerzx 7/15/2016

written by xashlerzx

I need help… I need to feel something again other than pain and sadness and heavy hearted. I’m falling apart and no one notices anymore because apparently I’ve been become too good at hiding. Ironic really that the only thing I’m good at anymore is hiding how I really feel. 22 years of doing it though, I better be fucking good at SOMETHING.

I don’t know what’s wrong with me… Why can’t I ever enter into a relationship where I’m not used, betrayed, or abused? Why can’t I feel happiness again, but REALLY feel it? I smile at my loved ones, I […]

7/15/2016 1 comment