I went to church and it was fun… But hard  for me… I guess it was okay and idk if i should go again.. I want to but I don’t and I’m scared that people will find out about all the crap that happened recently and I feel really bad but at the same time, I don’t care about them but they really are nice people and all so I’d feel really terrible when\if they decided to lecture me… HELP!! SHOULD I STAY OR SHOULD I GO!?! I wish the pain  of  the past would go away already!!
My life just keeps going farther and farther downhill and I can’t seem to find any peace from the despairs of everything around me. Recently, I had tried to commit suicide.. And I told someone I had taken 17 pills, and gone to the hospital because I wanted to live for one person- my ex who I still loved. I still love him.. Now, he says he cares but it’s hard to believe he does and I just want to try again.. I’m tired of this world but I’m scared it won’t work again and I’ll still have to live in secrets of […]
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