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yoohoo

Feeling more hopeful now that I have a community where I can write anonymously, and where I can help others. I don’t feel as alone anymore. I don’t think I’ll feel like a burden to others here, either.

There are people wanting to pull the trigger just like me, but I feel better now. I feel like I have a purpose now, and reading and relating to others has been surprisingly helpful. A few kind words. Thank you. I’m alive tonight. I started out doing research on the quickest, most painless ways to die, and ironically when I was ready to go, I find y’all. […]

8/6/2014 9 comments

Trusting when you shouldn’t?

by yoohoo 8/6/2014

written by yoohoo

Do you ever feel that the nicer you are, the shittier your life will be, and that the crueler people who have no problem walking over others succeed easier?

I’ve always hated the phrase, “It’s just business.”

No it’s not, you asshole. You’re taking the humanity out of the company and possibly ruining peoples’ lives.

Do you trust when you shouldn’t? I mean, are you naturally trusting, and do you never learn? Is that a flaw in a personality?

8/6/2014 5 comments

I’m on the verge. I need kind words and people who can relate.

by yoohoo 8/6/2014

written by yoohoo

I am brand new to this site. Brand new. This is my first post.

Happened to stumble across seppuku’s comment about being the golden child. I can relate, too. Growing up, I was successful at everything I tried. Now, I am worthless in the eyes of my parents and older siblings.

I am almost 34. I am female. Married. Clinical Depression. Tried ECT. Tried everything it would seem. The only thing that worked for me was 425mg of Effexor combined with the lowest dose of methylphenidate (a form of ritalin), but then the night terrors started where I would put out three changes of clothes a night, […]

8/6/2014 29 comments