This just doesn’t make sense to me. I’ve always been a very independent person who never really needed anyone. But now that I’ve lost him, it hurts so much to see his face everyday for almost 2 hours and everyday we make eye contact. It’s like we know nothing about each other, we went from lovers and best friends in one to nothing. We know everything about each other. I miss him, the late night conversations, and just the simplest things remind me of him. The way someone says something or the places I go. It bothers me, feels like I’ll never get over him. […]
Just depressed. I’ve been depressed before for 3 years. I got better. I was good and happy and appreciating things. Then things started going down hill again. I now have 2am thoughts at 2pm. And today I had the strongest feeling of killing myself. I was just about to as well. But then I looked at pictures of my boyfriend and I. That stopped me. Now im afraid that I made a big mistake. I made a mistake by making him my happiness. And of course he could just leave. But he wouldn’t do something like. But anyways, everything is bad again. I have scars, […]