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I am sorry son for all the pain I caused you when I divorced your father. The guilt I feel is shameful and never ending. I want to die.
To cut a long story short, I’ve been clinically depressed for the past 3 years. I recently went through a period when I didn’t feel suicidal and actually felt like things were starting to get better. Then the last couple of months happened and I’m feeling like I’m losing control again. I just don’t feel like it’s ever going to go away. I know I’m not strong enough to fight it all over again.
I always find my self contemplating suicide at least four times a week.  But the weird thing is i’m one of the most happy/outgoing people i know i just get into theses moods where i feel nothing.  They last hours sometimes days where i’ll just sit and stare at my fan wishing i was dead.  I’ve tried killing myself twice before by hanging but both times the rope teared i failed to break my neck and only caused severe pain and would black out only to wake up to people trying to save me.
Does anyone else know what i’m going though and have any advice on how to cope with it? […]
ummmm hello i feel really depressed and I feel like dying…I came out to my mom and she does not like it. my sophomore year in high school is not so great either I go to therapy every week but I still want to die by suicide cutting will not work anymore…I REALLY NEED TO DIE TO ESCAPE MY PROBLEMS. I have attempted suicide in the past and have been to hospitals. The only thing I need right now is someone to be there please help…
I tried killing myself yesterday.I onlt took 5 ibupropens i would of took more but ran out.I knew it probally would not kill me.But i just wanted to get away.I dont know how to tell my parents i know i need help.But also could it land me in a mental hospital?
I found this site today when I googled “I want to die” I feel like this all of the time. I see people on tv or on the street laughing and smiling and think “why cant I be happy for ten seconds in my day like they are right now” I want to die, to the point I am considering suicide but I don’t know what to do. I started cutting again. I want to know what do you guys do when you feel down, like your the gum on everyone else’s shoe?
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Is there anyone out there that feels as suicidal as me?
I’ve lost a job I loved. And I need to to pay this month’s rent and the next and etc. And I can’t fathom any of this because before all of this I was the suicidal girl and that never changed, though the circumstances that effected my life did. But how can I begin to start again when all I want more than anything is death? I have interests, but the only driving force that really exists within me is anything that gets me closer to death. This is my secret that I can’t tell anyone. Until my eventual suicide says it all.
you don’t understand how all your words hurt. Even if you don’t mean them..they still hurt. The I hate you’s, the are you sures because *insert my name here* said it and usually she’s wrong, I know what your like, and the I’ll do it because I know your a klutz. Petty things to say, I know, but yeah they do hurt. I know I’m not perfect I know I do stupid things. But the way you treat me like a god damned 3year old ad you show no trust is the reason I frigging hate my life!!!
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I feel nothing but worthless. I get called such horrible things I don’t even feel there is no point in carrying on this life. Why me? Why do I have to be the one where you defeat me and bring me down? I may be hopeless, I may be shadowed. I may not even be the one you wanted to know.
Why did I have to be bullied so bad that I was literally covered in scars. You ruined my life because of you’re actions. It wasn’t fair. Now I’m nothing…
staring at the wall
i drew a rainbow
i drew a horse
my arm bleeding
dripping onto the floor
just stand there
looking past the wall
The Dog wants to be a Man
The Man wants to be the Mayor
The Mayor wants to be a Celebrity
The Celebrity wants to be President
The President gives his Dog some Food
The Dog eats the Food
I am so sad and confused; I’m engaged to marry someone that I don’t know if I truly love -it’s terrible. I hate my life; when is this going to get better for me? Everyday, I’m so exhausted having to pretend that I’m ok when I’m not – that alittle part of me dies… I’m not happy but am worried that if I leave, my life will be terrible – I don’t know what I’m doing anymore… I don’t know what I want or what to do –
I haven’t  accepted being depressed I don’t know it’s like I never feel present I either miss the past or am afraid of the future. I feel like I try so hard to get back into things and feel “normal” again but what is normal, I keep telling myself that if I never became depressed that I’d be doing so much more but that’s not true because I wasn’t all that better and time going by makes me feel like I’ll never be free and that makes me never want to grow and become bitter and lonely. I don’t know if it’s just me but […]