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abandoning

Don’t I deserve to be happy?

by Yours, Forever and Always 8/1/2015

I told them I wanted to leave. It didn’t have to be far away, just away from here.

I need help and I know it. They know it. Everyone seems to know it.

I can’t get help while being here.

I’m becoming a monster. Aggressive, verbally abusive to others, physically abusive towards myself. I’ve just about given up on myself. And all anyone cares about is that fact that if I leave, it’s like I’m abandoning them. THEM!

Like, aren’t they abandoning me by only caring about themselves? They aren’t looking out for my best interest. I could kill […]

8/1/2015 1 comment

To whom this letter finds

by rek2123 8/26/2012

written by rek2123

I am emotionally numb. I recognize that my emotions are there deep beneath but I do not connect with them. Almost as if they are not real. As if Iâ€™m possibly inventing them, in an attempt to pacify a need in me to be normal and socially accepted. I donâ€™t know if Iâ€™m depressed. I donâ€™t know if what I feel is anxiety. I canâ€™t speak in public and donâ€™t leave my house much because I donâ€™t want to socialize due to my negative self-image and inability to really empathize with others adequately. But is that considered anxiety? I donâ€™t know. Sometimes […]

8/26/2012 2 comments