I dont know where to start.Everyday , before I sleep , I pray to God to take my life.I don wanna live anymore.I want to start with my father.He doesnt care about me , He didnt care about me till today ,btw I am 23.He only thinks money.He gave me little money even he can afford much.For example,in November , I wanted to him to buy me boots because mines were old(I was using them for 5 years).He said ok , and we went to shopping.After we bought them he abused at me hurl.Why does a dad do something like that to his son although […]
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“Just GO AWAY!” I hear that all the time. People don’t realize how much I actually think about ‘going away’, but not in the same sense they’re thinking… I think about killing myself probably 3-4 times a day. Sometimes more if the day is crappy, like this one.
I try to be funny, make other people smile. It makes me feel as if I have a purpose. But recently, people don’t seem the slightest amused or interested in me any more. I can’t even make an opinion anymore. My friend wears Uggs, and I’ll crack a joke like, “Those aren’t boots, they’re slippers!” And they all […]
I swear this fire doesnt burn
And darkness saves me
The bloody hateful world, it turns
And empty tears break free
I’ll be just fucking fine
With your guts off my mind
Youre the reason why my soul
Is so alone, Its so alone
I know you hate me
I know you’d turn me inside out
And walk about my bloody organs
In those boots you brag about
And i’ll be just fucking fine
With your guts off my mind
youre the reason why my soul
Is so alone, Its so alone
It’s So Alone
A couple of days ago i met my ex who had had the abortion. We haven’t really spoken about it since it happened and so when i brought it up it was a bit of a touchy subject. She had told a friend about it and they had advised her to write a letter to the baby and just say how she was feeling, she never had though.
We decided we would write one together. None of us knew what to say though and so we just sat for a while. Then we wrote ‘sorry’! That’s all i could say at first but then we got […]