went out today. first time this summer holiday. wore a midi dress for the first time this year but felt too exposed and walked around for 3 hours with my wool shawl pulled and hugged tight against my body in the sweltering heat. Today i was being judged to see if he wants me as part of his possy, so to speak. my best friend is part of the group, she said they’re nice and friendly. i didnt notice though, i was too absorbed in my anxious thoughts, looking out for people from school that i’d have to hide from. People make me uncomfortable. he […]
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Cryed
i dont know why, but lately ive cryed over the weirdest things. sometimes i start crying over seemingly stupid things, which makes me feel like a little spoiled brat crying over nothing, which makes me feel like no one would want to help me which makes me cry. school is awful. three days in and im so done.
if you’ve read my previous posts, you’ll know about the guy in my class. things have just been getting worse. i want to hate him. i want to hate him just so it would be easier. it wouldnt matter what he felt, because i would hate him and […]