If you don’t wish to talk to me anymore or have any means of communication with me, you could just tell me straight.
I don’t wish to be kept in the dark, even if the truth hurts…
There is no comfort in the truth anyway.
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Darling
Friday night
Comes and goes
I’m laying here
All alone
Misery visits
As well as my haunting past
Hoping this pain doesn’t last.
A voice
Says
“Darling, you are
Nothing anymore.”
And I believe the words it speaks.
Hands are sweaty
Body is weak.
I grab a chair
and my noose
Hanging it high
Letting my demons loose.
Now I’m gone.
I hate pretending like I’m okay when every little thing reminds me of you.
I feel like a horrible person because I’ve tried finding someone new.
I cry myself to sleep at night and I’m afraid to turn off the light…
I’m afraid that I’ll see you, I usually do…
I miss everything about you…
I miss your eyes so blue…
I miss your smile and the light in your eyes,
I miss the way we talked all night…
I miss how our hands, mine so small compared to yours, still fit perfectly together…
I miss how you seemed so excited, when you found out […]
Im so pissed right now…back then when i was lying in bed all day with fresh cuts on my hands noone gave a fuck… but now when i have to get a stupid highschool diploma suddenly im in the center of attention.
HEY! IM SUICIDAL OVER HERE!!! Help?
“but you wont get anywhere without proper edjucation, darling!”
am i dead already? what the hell giong on… noone can see nor hear me. Im crying through the day… how can you not notice mascara all over my stupid face?
okay, i dont need help anyways, i dont want it… but atleast before i die it would nice to hear things […]
I survived through a lot. Overdose, Anorexia, rehab(a lot of times), depression, self harm, suicide. If I can do it, so can you darling<3
she had big doe eyes
the colour of emeralds
her lips like blood
quivering and shaking
darling as she may
she never wanted to see the day
where she woke up
after she tried to end it all
-e.m.
Bitter, broken dearest
Can only sullenly repeat
How hurt she is, the pain she feels
Like babe suckling at teat
Slashes at her wrists
Like a toddler with a knife
Yet expects you to acknowledge
The hell that is her life
Tis the ones just like her
That leave me only silence
The ones that are those proud to wear
Their suicidal violence
Yes your pain is justified
And your wounds are real, I’m sure
But witnessing your selfish acts
Makes me want no more.
They drove me to ignore
The hands, the words, the plea
Bitter, broken darling
I blame you for losing me
You are just alone. Sure you show everyone around you that your happy but really you just want to end your life. Thats how I feel everyday. I look at you and wonder if you feel the same way too. You just sit there and constantly think of ways to end your life. But Im honestly afraid of how much pain I would cause to those who care. I can see  when you’re sad, and you can tell when I’m sad. But I know I would never give up on you. Sure in hell I will always be with you to support you. But I […]
i’ve done it. i’ve made the decision to end my life. though tears are running down my face, i couldn’t be happier. i feel so peaceful, genuinely happy. a feeling i’ve never felt inmy life before. i’m not giving up, i’m just giving in. for years i’ve felt like an empty shell, being carried by the river out to sea to be drowned and i don’t mind. i don’t really want to die, i suppose, i just want to rest my head. i’m okay with it, i accept this situation. may my body be the last i see and my heartbeat the last that i […]
I’m sick of crying
holding to your words that I begin to doubt.
Wondering to myself in silence
my darling, will you come back?
Why, like my life you made so colorful,
you causes so much pain to my soul?
Do you understand,
a little bit of that pain?
You made me a melancholy person.
Don’t you see?
Why don’t you see that
for you I kill and die?
Do you want proof?
Do you want me to die for you?
You act that way a while longer.
You’ll see how you’re killing me.
And I’m left kill.
You are the deadliest poison that pollutes my soul.
But if I leave you […]