Dead This Time

I have battled depression since I was 14 and have had multiple failed suicide attempts.  Recently I have come to realize how messed up society is and that because my father has hovered over me my whole life, none of my achievements are mine they are all just his in my name.  I am failing half of my classes at school and I am definitely not going to graduate.  Knowing my father my life is just going to end up being a giant hell hole.  I just want to die and stay dead this time.