I’m sitting here on my bedroom floor, blood dripping from my fingers, trying to convince myself to just end it all. It could all be over so quick. How can that not be tempting. I’ve often thought I’d wanna go painlessly, up until recently. My life has shattered around me, the people I cared about most have up and left. I decided that I didn’t give a fuck anymore. I decided “fuck love” and “fuck right and wrong. Nothing in my life has ever been right.” I’ve been wasting myself, losing myself. I hate myself for the things I’ve done, but I don’t care enough […]
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A wretched soul bruised with adversity,
We bid be quiet when we hear it cry;
But were we burdened with like weight of pain,
As much, or more, we should ourselves complain.
— — — Comedy of Errors (Act 2, Scene 1)
Hell is empty, and all the devils are here.
— — — The Tempest (Act 1 Scene 2)
My life is going on a different track…not how i expected…! My bestie tried to ruin my life…i just can’t imagine someone doing that to anyone…friends are to support you and give you their shoulder to shed your tears on…friends are to walk with you in your difficult times and everyone knows that no one can understand us better than our friends…but what if that friend betrays you and stabs behind your back…??? i don’t think anyone deserves a friend like mine…she betrayed me just because of jealousy…its so sad to hear that your own friends are jealous of you and not happy to see […]
Hidden beneath the pile of forbidden fruit
Lies emotions that whisper nothings sweet and crude
an attitude of lust and a beauty everlasting
brings with it the terror of an unexpected sting
the warm rush of feelings never felt
hand of avarice and wickedness ive been dealt
no doubt that i dont know what lifes all about
but i wear a mask and play the part and pretend to know the route
existence is the devils mistress and you wont be remiss to hear me say i dont miss this
the heart wants what it wants so get a grip
blood to spill and im insatiable ill take it all drip by putrid drip
a skip […]
life or something like that hey. Here we all are trying to …what exactly? humans are an incredible virus intent only to breed and feel . To feed off of selflessness in this poetic insanity. In all forms our humanity is formless. A virus intent with the production of destruction in a sick sad little world survived only by the fittest , the devils den . Welcome to the hell that is the human condition , frought with the distraction in every form. A narcissistic wounderland . The collective human experience ,so far beyond sodom and gomorrah.
I can think of no other animal so equally creative and […]
I don’t know what to do anymore, there is this strange part of me that wants to die, kill myself, have someone kill me, just DIE.
But .. the thought of death scares me. Where do you go ? Is there a Heaven is there a Hell ?
Where is this ‘ LORD ‘ when I need him. I want to believe, it’s just so hard .. I know the devils real. I feel like he’s everywhere. He’s the blade that cuts me, he’s the alcohol that takes over my mother. The fist of my father. He’s the urge to die.
” Now I lay me down […]