i don’t want to be on this planet. I don’t want to be alive. to live. to breath. I’m so tired of feeling powerless and having no one be there for me. the people that were supposed to teach and guide me never did. they just gave me more reasons to feel fractured then what we all have set up for us already. her voice sends shivers through me. it makes me so angry to hear her talk so lightly when there is much to be done. she just doesn’t care at all. i know you cant change people. i’m just on an endless loop. that’s all my life will ever be. same things over and over and over […]
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Endless Loop
Can’t stop thinking about this shit, have to write it or I’ll do something really fucking stupid
by fibsequence
written by fibsequence
I have been having suicidal thoughts lately
Seems like the easiest way out…..yet I’ve seen how suicide affects my friends, and I don’t want them to feel the pain of going through that ever again
So I’m stuck in an endless loop of torturing myself
I don’t fear death, I embrace it
Why fear something you know nothing about? It could be the best thing that ever happened to you
I am ugly, and all people ever seem to care about is how a person looks
Even if one of my friends is eyeing someone, they always judge them based on what they look like, and involve me
Even I’m guilty of […]
Last day at work for the year today.
I don’t want to seem like I’m obsessed with myself, but I probably am. I feel so alone and unloved. No matter where I am or who I’m with I’m always alone.
I feel unsafe. I’m listening to Breathe Me by Sia and it makes me want to cry. But I can’t cry.
I keep playing death over and over in my mind on an endless loop like a song I can’t get out of my head, but I can’t bring myself to do it. Not yet. The councillor asked me the other day if I actually want to die, […]