Fear is that feeling you get  that makes you feel helpless, your heart flutters and gasps, well your mind screams to run. Many think of fear as an external cause, where something outside of your self scares you. Little do people know that fear is internal, caused by the feeling of lack of power, you feel weak and powerless. your mind will play tricks on you telling you that you are weak, powerless, even worthless. The mind with fear slowly ether crumples under the strain or stands up to the lies and falsehoods become strong, powerful. One may think you can hide from it or […]
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iv been unemployed for 4years plus and my gcse are rubbish and there no chanc of my life improveing iv applyed to go back to collage iam hopeing they take me back. i do jui jitsu to help me stay up but my coach is hardly there and the students are rubbish there no other gyms in my area ether. my brother younger 2 years is a marine and all my family rave on about him and my gf is an A level student and is joinin the raf as a medic she is sucsessful i get 40+ hrs a week of no human contact. […]
Another lonesome night spent lamenting unknowable if’s and but’s. The walls are coming down, crumbling, slight cracks snake up from the ground, chips of plaster abandon there post and tumble hard, downwards. I sit, watching, and the last shudders of life drift out to rejoin the ether.
I sit and smile, an effect distilled from the pleasure of both watching this event and feeling it. I am a pathetic husk of a human being, an irretrievably broken man, endlessly pestered by apathetic and cowardly thoughts, of means to escape my open cage. I am institutionalized, I fear.
A throbbing vein mocks me as I contemplate a sharp edge. […]