hey guys
I have missed you guys
sadly I haven’t missed the thoughts they havent left me one bit. for weeks thoughts of death have been in my head and they wont go away. I am not sure if I wanna die or if its just the thoughts that are making me believe that I wanna die.
I just keep getting more and more reasons to die and not stay around here.
what the fuck am I supposed to do
Tag:
Evil Thoughts
I had a good day with my friends and being silly and laughing at how he was messing with another friend of mine but damn the evil thoughts of cutting are strong I found a good place to cut or well I have never cut before so yeah. I sadly wish a friend would text me. He saves me all the time with out knowing he does. I mean he’s the shit there’s no one on this earth that tell me I am pretty or makes me feel specai. I wish I could say what the hell I wanna say but I keep it in […]
Its been a while since I posted. Family moved down to Florida finishing up things in Indiana before I join them. Wonderful support of family made this all possible. I still struggle with the depression(she is on mean *****), but I am in control. Evil thoughts do not linger and I actually smiled and laughed the other day for the first time in awhile. Thank you everyone on this site for giving me a open ear or just a place to keep everybody updated. I don’t think I will be on this site much longer its time to start living again. My only advise […]
Moving to Florida for a fresh start. Family knows all issues and very supportive. On another notes evil thoughts do not overpower me any more did break down while driving by the RR tracks I had planned to use. Life is ok