had a thought today what if i did actually kill myself? one of my siblings or my mother finding me? then telling the whole family/close people relating to my death..tears streamed down my face, yes i do feel sad at times and suicidal and when turning to God i feel He isn’t helping me…although God has a plan for me and things happen for a reason..i cannot see or feel that things are picking up but seeing hurt upon my mother’s eyes? even though i would be dead..my mother going through life with pain and hurt from losing a child, her baby who grew in […]
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God Has A Plan
Tired of everything, already on anti-depresants but I’m not depressed I’m tired of it all, just plain tired of living.
I swear if I hear one more person say “God has a plan for you” I will scream!!! I was raised in church and these are the plans he’s had for me I’m screwed. No one on earth listens and I’m more than absolutely sure He doesn’t care either so if that’s where you are coming from, don’t bother.
A woman said to me the other day that I just need to make a choice and stick to it (she meant chosing God) well I’m making my […]