Holding On By A Thread

I push you away, but i keep going back for more. I utter the words and maybe after all this time they’re not true. It’s me I don’t trust believe me its not you. Not even you can take my pain away. I want to leave this world, but I know I have to stay. So God if you’re out there please hear my cries. I try and shut out the world tired of their lies. The more I try, the more I feel trapped. “She was such a good girl” they’ll say. “Until she just…..snapped.”