so I told you to look up , look up to the sky but I never said to say goodbye. You got those scares across your arms you know what’s wrong but not what’s right. As you smile in the moonlight I turn around (drip drop ,drip drop) are you okay? I’ll come back another day. Are you OK are OK are you okay ? You tell your mother that you’re fine you tell your friends that you’ll be alright you’ll be alright as you look at me and I look at you I could see the darkness shining right through so I’ll ask one […]
Hello, I am death. Aren’t I beautiful? I will cure all your problems in one quick move.
All you need to do is look and see. I am dazzling. Nothing compares to me. Have you tried talking to family, friends? Have you tried medication? Therapists? Have you tried getting your life in order? Have you done all you can but all still fails and you are left with grave regrets. Does your past haunt you? Is it impossible to move on? Is there no hope for the future?
When life is endless pain, and it seems there is no […]
Ok, so. My google search failed obviously to find me a suicide pact. But while I found this I guess I’ll share my story~
I might kill myself. I have all the reason to, and not like most. Herp derp, I know people have troubles but most people that look at middle schoolers or high schoolers and listen to their “reasons” for suicide and generally agree that they have no reason to and they should live.
I /actually/ have little reason to live.
I /actually/ have reasons.
I most likely /actually/ cant find happiness in this life.
Well the voices are bothering me again. I wonder what they want….I guess this means back to rehab I go..you know whats over rated people…. life…. ey but we live it dont we. And we gotto live it. Thats the problem. Its in a way kinda compulsory… even after death theyll keepp at you. Heh… look at that. I babling again
dear sp, MERRY WHATEVERYOUCELEBRATE to you. may this day provide the magic and peace that we deserve. how grateful i am to all of you for the help you provided. even the angry, in-your-face ones. sorry for laughing but that was ME not too long ago. i plan to stay with sp, however things turn out for me. you have become a really close friend, and i look forward to the time i spend here. truly an interesting cast of characters from around the world. i, too am alone on this day of celebration. and perfectly content with that. pull up an extra chair. i […]
you’re gonna stay home tonight. and the next night. and the night after that. but no matter what happens you’ll never think of me.
you won’t think of the late night conversations we had. the video calls we had that you fell asleep in because the night was pitch black will never cross your mind. you’ll busy yourself with work and won’t reply or message me for days or weeks.
then out of the blue you’ll message me. you’ll try to show you care even though i know that you don’t. you don’t care about the way i laugh or smile. the way i try to act […]
What is life when u dont know its meaning..
i cant look for the future when my present is trembling..
Trembling with fear of not knowing..
This fear just keeps on growing.
Every hope life gave me was misleading..
Every happy start led to a sad ending..
I got in trouble at school because i thought someone was my friend but they turned there back on me and said i did things that i never meant to do i can’t ever seem to get anything right like i look around and everyone seems to be doing good and i’m hoping and wishing that i could have their secret, that one day i could be happy with who i am,and what i am i wish i could be happy with myself
I just can’t do this anymore though, I lay in my bed awake just thinking and not thinking at the same time. On the weekends I don’t leave my bed. I have this powerful urge to get up and start walking. I want to walk and never look back. I want to walk so far away and just stop existing. I’m a freakin burden to my parents, siblings, friends, everyone. I feel it, I see it in their eyes. Why is this happening to me? My ex and I just recently broke up, we were dating for a year. I just found out that a […]
hey every one I just want to tell this advice to every girl if you ever love someone it’s ok love him but don’t ever give him your body let him play with him ,because you will regret it after believe me . I know you will give him your body because you love him but he would be just playing with your emotions and passing his time with you . after he plays with you he would tell you simply (I can’t stay in this relationship) simply as if nothing had happened . and you would start crying in your bedroom and he would […]
sometimes you loose sense of everything, especially, if you are all surround by you enemies. And indiana jones doesn’t seem, he is their to save you. But rather to see you get scavenge. One wise man has said, the worst enemy of yours is always closer to you and you won’t know him until the itching voice of the trigger getting pulled down. And you are so close to your defeat such that, you don’t even have the time to calculate how much time you have left. Hmm… A wise man, eh ? But then once you know him; even on that little time, you […]
sometimes you loose sense of everything, especially, if you are all surround by you enemies. And indiana jones doesn’t seem, he is their to save you. But rather to see you get scavenge. One wise man has said, the worst enemy of yours is always closer to you and you won’t know him until the itching voice of the trigger getting pulled down. And you are so close to your defeat such that, you don’t even have the time to calculate how much time you have left. Hmm… A wise man, eh ? But then once you know him; even on that little time, you […]
Earlier this spring I made the huge mistake of telling my closest friends about my suicidal thoughts. Being the friends that they were, like any other people, they tried to talk me out of it. But my suicide plans got out to other people. They’d come and ask me about it and would always plaster a “concerned” look or “friendly” smile on their face, and start with the same frightening phrase, one that sends shivers down my spine
“I won’t judge you”
If approached about your suicide, when you hear that phrase leave their lips. Run my friend, run.
When you look at me like that, I don’t get it, I just can’t breathe at all. When you look at me like that, You make alive what I thought it was dead inside me. And all I want is learn a way of how to let you know…
Hiding. I don’t want to go to the movies with you. I don’t want to celebrate anyone’s birthday. No, I don’t want to visit with you. Please don’t come by. Please don’t ask to make plans with me. Please don’t call. I have nothing left to give any of you. I cannot be a friend at the moment. I’m exhausted by all of you. You remind me of who I was. Who I am presently not. I know you want to see me smile. I know you […]
….There are so many of us. So many of us who feel suicidal and want to harm ourselves. Yet most of us say we hide away and/or try to fit in. Why is there this pressure/stigma to depression that just adds to the guilt we already have. Scared of hurting family and friends by telling them how we honestly feel. Other people can be selfish, put themselves first, are taught to look after themselves if they are treated wrong or are ill, but feeling suicidal doesn’t get anything other than a raised eyebrow, or a look of fear from people like you are going to blow […]
My feet are clammy from the marathons I am forced to run in my mind. Was that you that came to me in the hopeless dark of the night? Or are these blessed visions an after image of a cursed mind? My soul is an enigma. It baffles the masses and their fear overruns their ignorance. Alas, even I am perplexed by what I have become. A solitary phantom drifting down a rocky precipice but it cannot reach the dark waters. I wish I could ascend on starry wings though this is just a fantasy, once cherished. So what will be the method of my […]
Every time I ask for help all she does is laugh. All I need is her advice, but instead she would laugh. She doesn’t look at my arms anymore because she thinks I’m normal but really I have razor cuts all over my arms. When I started to cut she always thought It was a break up, but It was always her. She made fun of me and my friends. Always blamed me for her and my stepdad fighting. I’ve been cutting myself for over a week because of her. I just need her to accept me and know that I am my own person. […]
I’m so tired of everyone. All the obligations and responsibilities I inevitably have being the oldest child. Though I don’t think I am a child anymore. I have so many expectations to constantly live up to, and when I don’t, I become a failure in my familys eyes. I have a habit of not finishing what I start. School, by some miracle I graduated, though I wasn’t allowed to attend graduation or promotional because instead of expelling me, they just told me to not come back the last month of school in order to get my diploma. I went to the military after that. I […]