my life… i pushed for what i wanted. i always got close. sooo close yet every time, it fell. my soul,  for anything and everything is gone. i really just want nothing. existence as a whole i just don’t want.  growing up with an abusive family. pushing away from them. finding home in a best friends family. loving it more than your own. growing and pushing yourself to get what you want. only not to get it. learning not to care so much about it.  always with the thought of finding someone for you on the way, someone to love. of course being in many relationships. to give up […]
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Reality Hits
Still dont have a method im comfortable with. I want to do it so bad. Sometimes I get caught in the fantasy of my future and I say maybe I can turn things around and be happy one day. But then reality hits. I know I won’t be okay. The people on here havent been so helpful.. I just want to die so bad. Someone decide to shut me up and give me a method! If not I guess ill die another day. But I will do it sooner or later .