I’ve been around for a while – like more than half a century. My health is lousy, to a point it’s my fault but the reality is that I hate my life so much that there are subconscious self-destructive dynamics at work I cannot change. It is very much like having a slow-motion dream where you have 4 arms and 4 hands; 2 are tied behind your back and the the other two are slowly pulling the pin out of a grenade with the intent to shove it in your mouth and you are powerless to stop it.
People feed self-hatred by using someone or carelessly/intentionally […]