Set Goals

do i have borderline personality disorder?
i desperately want to know what i have why i have it and how i can fix it.
i dont know if these questions are ever answered but atleast i will die knowing that i did care enough to look for an answer. i want to be able to grasp what it is that is wrong with me and then be able to tackle it.
this empty feeling is consuming me. i want to be able to say that i can one day be normal. i want to be able to live my life, set goals and realize them.