Well..I am 27 years old. I feel cold inside, like I have no emotions or tears left. My heart feels like it has a large hole in it. I seriously have no friends or no one to talk to. All I ever do is work & stay home. I live in a country side of Alabama & nothing makes me happy anymore. I have thought about killing myself a few times but I know if I do then I will go straight to hell. But on the other hand, It feels like this life on earth is hell. I play guitar & drums for almost […]
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Straight To Hell
Tonight as we sleep,
When we aren’t making a peep.
Let’s dream of all the little broken things,
Pretend we are butterflies with solid wings.
Wish for things to become right,
As we sleep in the night.
While most sleep without a sound,
I toss and turn ’round.
My mind is filled with a nightmare,
Though no one really seems to care
Please kill me I start to yell,
I know I am going straight to hell.
The man with horns sounds the alarm,
Here comes everyone that’s ever done harm.
I then wake up without a breath of air,
But then again no one will care.
Shattered dreams,
broken heart,
dark thoughts,
razor sharp,
flash of light,
streak of red,
bullet passing through my head.
Suicide,
no more lies,
it’s on my mind,
i want to die,
please don’t ask why,
i won’t tell,
i know i’m going straight to hell.
Look at me,
what do you see?
iron cage,
set me free,
release my thoughts,
release my mind,
i’ll only tell you one more time.
To make it stop,
to let it end,
a bullet is my only friend,
the one that helps
the one that sees
yes, the bullet,
it’s the key.
Tonight i’m going to truely give in to this stupid cycle of misery and i’m going to make it end.
I’ve planned it well i beleave no one suspects i’m going to do it, i saw a counselor and i lied to him and chickened out of the help i know i need, walking into his office i felt so sure that he could fix me, help me but then i knew that no one could fix me so i lied and made out it wasn’t as bad as it seemed ironically he asked if i had a plan or some method, i said no […]