I had a pretty good weekend and im staring to fell better. But the problem is everywhere I turn my past comes back to haunt me. Everyone around me is doin drugs and drinking, im finally trying to get clean but its hard. But ill keep soldiering on. I watched a documentry about suicide tonight and I dont think I could put my friends and family through that hurt. Though I might be in a better place the people I leave behind will have to deal with that grief for the rest of there life. Im so young I have a lifetime to live, I realized this […]
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Temptations
The dire need of feeling pain, my mind no longer being sane,
Deep down inside, I feel as if I’ve died,
With each breath, I wish a quick death,
As I lay on the ground, without a sound,
With a reach of my hand, I gave into my internal demands,
Raising it to shine in the light, it gleamed as evil as the night,
With a cry, tears fell from my eyes,
The need for pain was driving me insane.
Gripping the sharp metal tight, I pushed down with all my might,
The stinging sensation, fueled my temptations,
Line after line, far from fine,
Push came […]
A darkness has fell upon me,
One that has an insatiable hunger for my soul,
It’s been feeding on what happiness i have,
Draining the hope i have for it to stop,
Guiding me to unknown places,
With temptations of opportunities to feel better,
Food has lost it’s taste,
I have no appetite,
Sleep kills the high,
I had worked all day to reach,
(I feel sick…)
This darkness is consuming me,
Taking a firm grasp on my mind,
Making me more vulnerable,
The darkness,
it knaws at your thoughts,
injects you with it’s drug,
tears the flesh right from your bones,
After it has had it’s fun,
When […]