Today is my 19th birthday… life isn’t appealing. I started feeling depressed after I moved when I was 10. Now, almost a decade later it hasn’t vanished. I’ve tried solving my problem but I can’t seem to discover the cure for lack of motivation. Everywhere I search the answer is to apply myself to a goal, pursue my dreams. How can I do that if I have no such things… What is worst is that everyone has the highest expectations for me. I’ve been branded genius by psychologists and could’ve pursued any career I wanted. This year I entered my country’s most prestigious engineering school, […]
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the cure
I have been fighting depression for 3 years now. I have made attempts, but always failed. My doctor claims I am a walking miracle. But I truly don’t want to be like this. I don’t want to die I know in my heart I truly don’t. I just cant shake this feeling of despair. Like I cant ever be happy, Ive been trying for 3 years! sometimes Its hard to convince myself that I’m stronger than suicide. And Lately, Its been more of a challenge. I want to get better, not waste away in the dirt. Ive sought help, but I feel almost worse about […]
I really do not understand the point of life if once we leave here we’re suppose to have some deep understanding of why everything is the way it is. If we already knew this before we came here then why the hell were we put here? Perhaps to make connections  that already existed before we came here, or maybe learn life lessons? If so, this also doesn’t make sense because we would have already achieved the state of knowing before being put here. Imagine being able to know everything. This could range from how many strands of hair exist on our heads to something miraculous […]