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Fortuitous Future

by StruggleOn 4/3/2014

written by StruggleOn

Nobody tells the future. Â Futures don’t have infinite linearity to each distinctive, singular life. Â I have more future then past in my life right now. Â And they say . . . live for that. Â Truth be told, no – we can not undergo a set-in-stone determination of what the future will be. But the implications of life now can decide what the future might be like. Â Life is bad right now, driving me to the last of me, all done by my own hand. Â What makes it worse, is I can’t pick out any possibility for a future with a good outcome.

Quiero morir
DÃ©jame ir

4/3/2014 13 comments

Molasses and Monsters

by colonizedlosers 4/2/2014

written by colonizedlosers

I feel like I’m moving through molasses.

Everything is drawn out so unnecessarily. They’ve been telling me for years that we will be moving, whether we want to or not. We don’t have a choice in the matter, thanks to the bank owning our house. It’s like waiting in a state of constant anticipation. It’s exhausting, really. So I shelve the thoughts and trudge forward. It’s not like I can predict the future or change what is inevitably going to happen. I’ve had to accept it and press on. Yet, it remains a small weight that I carry around on my chest.

This attitude has been a […]

4/2/2014 2 comments

I’m going to try to kill myself tomorrow

by ahannah123 3/24/2014

written by ahannah123

I have 480 pills (24,000 MG ofÂ diphenhydramine HCL) should be enough to kill someone who is over 100 pounds.I’m only 85-88 pounds so this might actually work.My birthday is on Wednesday I’m 14 right now.I’m not sure what I want anymore sometimes I really want to die,but other times I’m not sure.I feel so lonely right now and I don’t really have any plans for the future either.No one really talks to me.I had thisÂ counselor I met once a week but since my ‘medicaid’ got cancelled I can’t talk to her and no one else seems to care.My grades kinda suck and I have no […]

3/24/2014 14 comments

the sun rises slowly

by hattie 3/24/2014

written by hattie

far out.

the world is an incredible place.

how funny that we can value something like life so much when its so temporary.

i value my life with everything.

i value the history and the future, and the morning and the night, the water and the sun and snow, and the food and the sounds; i value everything that will inevitably end. if your in a relationship and you find out that it will come to a tragic end, you’d get the fuck out, save yourself the heartache right? but thats everything. every person you love you’ll loose; there all just temporary components of the illusion that is your […]

3/24/2014 2 comments

Crazy Logic!

by k2fraser 3/21/2014

written by k2fraser

Yeah I’m high, and this probably makes no sense, but whatever.

Let g represent what I want, my goal, where I want to be in the future.
Let a_1, a_2,â€¦a_n be the steps required to reach g.
The nature of g implies that failure at any point a_i results in returning to a_1.
Let x be the amount of pain I feel when failure occurs such that x @ a_i > x @ a_i â€“ 1.
Let y be the amount of happiness I feel, such that y @ a_i > z @ a_i – 1
i.e. the closer to the goal the more happiness/pain that […]

3/21/2014 14 comments

A sequel….

by failurereigns 3/15/2014

written by failurereigns

Oh hey, look at that, I’m here again.

Great.

I was dating the perfect guy for me. He had faults, but I was crazy attracted to him and regular sex helped me get over my addiction to masturbating. And then he broke it off, over THINKING I had an sti, and not trusting me even though I was crazy loyal to him.

And that’s not it, I’m doing bad at school for the first time in my life. I told my teachers I was suicidal to get out of a test, I’ve never missed a test of my own volition. Ever.

I miss holding him, and cuddling, and doing […]

3/15/2014 1 comment

My story, and how i feel.

by CB3000 3/14/2014

written by CB3000

Hey guys. well, where to start.Â I’ve always had suicidal thoughts. when I was 17 my first serious girlfriend left me for herÂ ex.Â I went through a long stage of depression. for at least 6 months. I wrote a long suicide note to my family one night when I was certain I was going to kill myself. IÂ was in bed, left the note laying on the floor. I had a plastic bag put it over my head waited a couple of minutes…I could slowly feel myself drifting away.Â but as I was about to fall into the ‘no going back zone’Â I had second thoughts […]

3/14/2014 1 comment

Depressed but unsure

by Powerless_Hero 2/25/2014

written by Powerless_Hero

I’m sixteen, afraid of death but overcome by thoughts, people, judgement. I used to be mad all the time but now? Sad, depressed, not a full day I can say I’m proud of myself, that I’m accepted and that’s fine, I don’t need highschool opinions/rumours. I don’t want to die but I don’t want all this stress, of the future, of the past, of people. Forgive me for boring you.

2/25/2014 3 comments

that familiar feeling

by pillarofsalt 2/6/2014

written by pillarofsalt

I distract myself, i try to move away from everything but in those moments when ii dont get sleep and all i can think about is everything, that loneliness, the complete sense of failure within me and i realize that if this is life now, the future will not be any better. I’m looking for a way to end this existence because i cant continue any longer..

2/6/2014 0 comment

I am thankful for the following things:

by SurrealDeal 2/5/2014

written by SurrealDeal

1) I’m not drowning inÂ debt.

2) I have a job; I don’t mooch off others.

3) I have personal freedomÂ due to the fact thatÂ I’m single.

4) IÂ graduated fromÂ college. I plan on pursuing graduate school in the future.

5) I’m intelligent.

6) I’m experienced when it comes to the negative things in life, i.e., I’m not superficial. I don’t have to rely upon trivial advice and/or criticism from less experienced individuals.

7) I’m a gentleman with respect to the opposite sex, even if it never pays off. In other words, I’m not a loser douchebag.

8) Difficult books.

9) The ability to write.

10) Coffee without sugar.

2/5/2014 4 comments

I don’t think I can do this anymore

by sab777 1/30/2014

written by sab777

My boyfriend broke up with me, he was cheating on me but maybe if I was a better girlfreind he wouldn’t have had too. I love him and I know it’s my fault. I’m one of those people who have to try harder then everyone else. When I study for school it takes me 8 hours to remember something that other people remember in only 2 hours. I always ruin everything I try to do including my relationships. I’m surrounded by people who have done amazing things already or have skills. I am 20 years old, havn’t joined any sports, I have no skills, I’m […]

1/30/2014 7 comments

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