Long story short… I heard Travis’s voice on the phone just a few minutes ago… I’ve only heard his voice in my dreams… I feel like I am dreaming… I still love the sound of his voice<3
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Travis
I know I keep posting about my exboyfriends and I’m sorry, but its all been adding to my depressioN soooooo much
how do  you  convince your self of something? Like you know that something  is the right answer.. But you just don’t believe it.
i know it is best and that I’m not suppose to be with Travis anymore, but I can’t stop wanting him.. Needing him.
any suggestions? Please share them with me!!!!
Saw Emily at the mall today …  That’s my exboyfriends sister  Ad it was way too awkward… She gave me a death stare  which really sucks because we used to be pretty close. I had an anxiety attack after saying hi to her.  Just makes me want Travis that much more.
And reminds me about how perfect his new girlfriend is  and how fucking shitty I really am
Just another day.. typical.. nothing unsual.. just thinking to myself about travis.. ( i dont care. ill put his real name up) I think maybe there still is hope for us..? not for sure.. but i have a feeling that maybe things arent totally over.. we had too deep of a conection.. we understood each other in everything we said and did. morgan (his new girlfriend) cant possible know about his nervous habits. how he cracks his knuckles in a certain way when he is thinking about something, or he is upset. how he bites at his cuticals when hes uncomfortable. how he obsesses with […]
I feel like that again. Like all I can do is cry. And be depressed. And hate myself. My tears feel like razor blades. My heart aches. Yet again, I’m not who I seem to be. I’m empty. I’m scared… I want to be gone, so no one has to deal with the pathetic excuse for a person that I am. And so I can be done with this. Disgust is the only thing I see in myself. I’m the one who made myself like this. And there is no way to fix me. I depend on pills to keep me alive, to numb my […]
Recently I have become a member of this website, I thought maybe it will help me change my mind, maybe it will give me more time to decide what I want to do. And it did, reading your guys post made me give myself a week, and if nothing got better then I knew for a fact that i’d be done with it all. Luckily , on the 3rd day of giving myself a chance it changed, the hottest boy in the school asked me out. For years all the girls said I would never have a chance with the quarter back, and what now, […]