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thank you daniel, that helped me alot, i just went to my psychiatrist and opened up to him alittle. see, i am incredible at hiding my pain. others would never in a milion years guess what goes thru my head. it scares me how good i am at acting. my therapist was floored by some things i told him. and ive been seeing him for a half of a year. he plans to put me on anti depressants as soon as possible. ive talked about a few other issues on here. only a few though. its hard. it makes me want to jump out my bedroom window frankly. my self worth is still low……. and dark sunshine, your post made me laugh alittle for some reason. i dont fully understand the position you are in but i do have several friends who are in the same position you are in. listen, i can tell by your post, you probably dont listen to others often but this is just a suggestion… stop caring. dont give a fuck what your father thinks. he will eventually have to come to terms with the fact that you are gay. join or start gay rights/ support groups at your school. look around you, you are not alone. you are never alone. maybe you could see a therapist? get pills? and i know you are probably sitting reading this rolling your eyes thinking im such a hypocrite or that i should practice what i preach. but today when i talked to my therapist, i realized that there is hope. oh and i also wanted to let you know… irony– my godfather just got married to his partner of 15 years this morning. they are happily joined in a civil union. even when my grandfather didnt accept him being gay AT ALL…. proof, that there is hope, and that you can get out of this. well get thru it.