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Pain

May 31st, 2016by EmptyGlass

Well I did it. I made my parents cry again. This has been happening a lot recently. Tonight it was a math problem. I know, don’t say anything, I know. I was trying to complete a math ws, of course I didn’t understand any of it, so I go downstairs to ask for help. My dad begins to explain something in a way that I didn’t comprehend well, and I went off. Anxiety and depression took over, causing me to have a severe breakdown and run to the bathroom to cry. I’ve been in here for an hour now listening to my parents cry and …

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Here we go again.

May 31st, 2016by Kintsukuroi

Uh, hi. I’m new to this site and found it while I was in a dark mood. I just feel like this place might be safe for me to open up a bit and let things out.

I’m nineteen, about to be a junior in college, and have been suffering from anxiety and depression most of my life. I’m diagnosed with anxiety and positive I have depression and a form of PTSD. I’m on medication for my anxiety but I’m afraid that it might not be working or having odd side affects on me recently. I’ve taken this medication for about a year now and recently …

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TRAPPED

May 31st, 2016by _Audrey_

I really just want to die today. I feel trapped. I feel pressured to “feel better” by my mom and my therapist. I feel like theres no coming back from depression. Theres no making it go away. There is no hope for me. My mom is telling me how to feel. Everything just feels too much.

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Why do I feel like this?

May 31st, 2016by skysie

So I went to my prom as a lot people recommend but no matter how hard I tried I couldn’t enjoy it my social anxiety kicked in and I became self conscious. All the songs reminded me of my bestfriend and person I loved that I lost. I missed him and really wished he could have been there. I saw everyone else was happy so what the fuck did I do to deserve so much pain, to lose everything. Why am I being punished since the day I was born.

I cant do this anymore

I just wanna go to sleep and never wake up

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Loud

May 31st, 2016by J Doe

Hello.  I have two days left in school.  You can tell in everyone’s mood.  It is getting louder.  Everyone is running around busy with finals and friends.  The hallways are so loud you can barely hear yourself think.  I’m going to leave soon.  I’ll be on my own soon, not to see others for a solid 3 months.  I’m not sure how to feel.  My head feels a bit squeezed.  Every feel like you have something to do, but you don’t know what it should be?  Like a feeling in your feet the means it needs to be moving.  Walking is a somewhat odd thing. …

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This is the default

May 31st, 2016by Iwantpeace2

Is this really the world on default? When I say default I mean how we see it day in and day out…

Think about it. We just exist just like everyone else most of us have all the options as everyone else, meaning you can take your life or you can change it its really up to you the world isnt put on I hate you only mode, this is simple the way it is but the only option for me is death becuz im sick in my head

Idont need to talk to anyone professionally they”ll only tell me things I already know like I cant …

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Sounds of the night

May 31st, 2016by gkks

I live in a quite big city and in a busy neighbor of it. When I lay down at night I can hear the trains from the train station about half a mile away and the cars from the street and other sounds of the night. I don’t know why but it’s like quiet and noisy at the same time. It relaxes me. When I say that to anyone they call me crazy. Maybe I am (probably am), but I love the sounds of the night. A train, a car, an airplane flying over, people taking in distance. But it’s also so peaceful. I used …

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Sketching a broken world

May 31st, 2016by Cordless

Sketched this last night when I couldn’t sleep and had too many things on my mind.
We live in a messed up world with messed up people, a world where wolves, angelfish, swans, termites, and others mate for life, but humans either have no one to love them, or they end up stuck with someone who doesn’t love them so much after all.
This is a world I would like to exit.
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sketch-keptapart

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Been too long…

May 31st, 2016by lissbabe

It’s been a while since I’ve been on here, but I guess people have habits that die old. I’m tired of staring at a blank wall and pretending everything Is alright. It’s getting too hard to carry on walking around the world with a smile on my face when all I feel is the sadness and memories on the inside but I feel as if, if I show a smile on my face then people around me wont have to worry about me, I know that people don’t want to be bothered by my feelings. I just want an escape I want to end all …

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anyone seen or heard from Ant?

May 31st, 2016by Hazy Day Sunflower

Did his posts get deleted? I can’t find them. Does anyone have an update?

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I’m back

May 31st, 2016by lxmyrick

Hello everyone.  Sorry I haven’t been on lately.  I lost my password and so I have been trying to reset it but it took me forever. Anyway I’m back.  And for the people who haven’t heard from me, hello.

 

I am always free and if an of you need or want help contact me-

 

Gmail- bobs65325@gmail.com

kik- Cancersurvivor05

And if any of you what to talk, please tell me that you are from SP, Suicide Project

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I feel like she hates me

May 31st, 2016by MrDaCookieMan

I met a girl when i was in fifth grade and we were kinda friends and then in sixth grade we started dating and we dated for a while and about three months ago she just broke up with me and it just killed me inside but it gets even worse. After we broke up she said she wouldn’t date anyone for like 5 months but she thought it was a good idea to go out with a girl and the had been perfectly fine for a few months and then they got in a fight and my ex came to me for advice so …

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they don’t understand

May 31st, 2016by outinthedark

the reason why im so good at hiding my depression is that i do everything everyone tells me. i do what others say i should do to gain their approval of my life. because if everyone else thinks im doing good in my life then obviously i must be happy and not depressed in the slightest. i go to college because thats what everyone my age does and its what my parents want me to do. i do so many things to make others happy so they wont see me.

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Gods Among Us

May 31st, 2016by turquoise

I just wanted to say I am not a religious person, but still, one way or another we all seek lower-case-g god. One of my ways is this… I can focus and say and ask for things within this forum that those with a traditional faith practice may say in prayer. And when I hear back from you in comments or emails, it makes you all the voice of god I seek. So, thank you, spirit guides. If any of you have a statue of yourselves you might like me to place above my front door, just send it along. 🙂

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i don’t know anymore

May 31st, 2016by blue darkness

i need someone to talk to…

i can’t deal with all the voices, the pain, the loss, the live…

i never noticed how heavy air is…

i wanna be me again… before all this happened…

the only way is to start again…

email me : keza.talwar@gmail.com

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Lost..

May 31st, 2016by nonexistingsoul

I’m so messed up. My mind is messed up. I feel like I can’t see reality anymore. It’s like I’m stuck in my chaotic mind and It’s killing me. I don’t know the way out. I keep distracting myself and doing some stuffs but then I feel like I’m caged inside my mind. It’s like I’m here but I’m not here. I’m tearing up because of frustration. I don’t know how to fix myself anymore. I don’t know what to do and it’s fucking killing me inside. I’m going mad!

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May 31st, 2016by brxken._.lxcks

Okay, so about a month ago I was forced to go to the hospital because I had gotten too suicidal. I had to stay in an empty room for 8 hours. I was supposed to stay there for like a week or two, but I had told my mom that I didn’t want to go back to my therapist because it wasn’t helping and it was making me worse, and after that I told her I was getting online help, being on this website has helped me way more than my therapist. But if I tell her about this site she would want to see …

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rant

May 31st, 2016by anthropophobia

I heard my step-brother talking about how he used to think he knew a lot, I think more in reference to medicine and about the body. That now he has been in med-school for a few years he knows much more than he used to. Now this normally wouldn’t bother me coming from anyone; I may come off as jealous with this observation, but from this braggadocios fellow it seemed sickening in a way. I mean in a way if you look at his realization, it’s as if in some way he was humbled by the fact his younger self realized he wasn’t really …

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Its really time…

May 31st, 2016by Iwantpeace2

Im bout to jus do the deed , I jus need to hurry up nd get it done

For thoughs of who knew me, thanks but this world is yours now

And as for you…. this is your fault and karma is a bitch

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I suck at painting (my next assignment finished)

May 31st, 2016by shatterediris

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welp I have finished it…. painted it up, didn’t quite get the textures I wanted, but I guess I can’t expect that with my second time painting on paper (it’s kind of like paper (Bristol board)) I removed some objects as it made it feel cluttered…. But on the same hand I moved the objects a bit closer to each other, and freed up space on the left, to just be there…. I really don’t like it, but then again I hate everything I do, so I guess that’s normal…. Just thought I’d share since I …

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