sorrow

Fuck….I dont know what to do anymore I hate myself every second of my life…I feel so ugly I feel so angry at times because I get so sad at night when im alone..I always try to invite someone over…I dont want to be alone. I hate being alone I hate it so much I wish I had someone to talk to my therapsit who I used to see hasnt made any contact with my since last in november…I feel so weak now. I tired to stop cutting but I cant help it I feel so pointless. I just wish I had someone to talk to again I cant go to my friends anymore I guess they’re tired of hearing about my problems pfft I dont blame them thats all I talk about anyways….I can understand why they just stop caring about my problems…I just wish I had someone to talk to so badly..I dont wanna cut anymore. I dont wanna use weed as a escape thats why I quit. I JUST WANT SOMEONE TO TALK TO! I write poetry to deal with my pain but that only gets me so far now a days, I dont want my life to keep going this way I let it all out Im afaird that I’ll end up doing something stupid. Once again I find myself in tears over my past and my mother I just want everything to go away..I want to see happiness I want to live past 16 I just want to be happy again.