Who has seen “The Dark Knight” ? Latley I feel I have been acting like the Joker. Out of no where for reasons I don’t understand I am more grim than ever and having suicidal thoughts. Silly little insane thoughts. If I killed myself:
I would use rainbow colors and glitter on my noose and surround my feet with candy so when people freak out and throw themselves at my feet, “oh look! Candy” to brighten their dark times.
Or if my retired officer dad finally wanted to get rid of his pathetic, dumb, good for nothing, daughter he’d use one of his beloved guns and my head would explode like a gusher when you squeeze it just for the juice. Well, I guess with the Magnum. I’m not sure.
It’s like I’m joking about it but considering it nonetheless. We have a hook to hang dead deer on and I felt like I would have used that if I didn’t walk back into the house. I don’t want to kill myself. I’m confused as to why I think and consider it.
I use to be the one who always helped anyone who needed it and now that I need help I don’t know how to ask for it.
Please don’t end your life, I’m suicidal and I still care.