I’m really from norway so my english might not be the best….
my life has never really been good, I’m a christian and partly because of that people have allways bullied me. first I was in a kindergarden where we were out playing all day, and we werent allowed inside. I don’t remember this sinse I was moved to annother place when they saw how I was treated (the kids was the mean people not the grownups). there I was still badly treated, but now it was rather passive. in norway we start school as 6 years old. I started school, but the kids there were as bad as in kindergarden.. it was as I was used to, and I did’nt get any real friends. they kinda frose me out, and it was painfull. in my 4. year the teachers finally saw what was going on. there was a lot of tummult (is that the right word?) around it but in real they only got smarter i they’re work. I found out though, that I was’nt the only one who felt lonely. in my 5. year some people from another school were going to start where I was. I had a very good friend allong them, and she ended up getting friends with someone that are now one of my closest friends. I ended up having totally three friends at school. I started my eight year and allsow started a new school whith the friend I have got since I was four. I got a lot of friend compared to what I had from before. my parents are now separated because my mum is psychic sick and is depressed. I did’nt really have problems with this before every grownup around me started ackting like I was the one depressed! I’m in the end of my eight year at school now and I’m depressed. wanna die or run away!!! dad is disapointed because I aint doing homewok anymore and he sais he’ll make my life a hell if I dont improve!!! I’ve got a friend who is great to talk to, he has had a lot of problems from before and is LIVING proof that things can be better! I used to smoke, but he helped me stop and now I don’t even wanna think about start again. we talk about these things mainly by msn. it’s not really safe to talk at school if we dint want anybody else to know. I’ve started drinking now, and it’s all dad’s fault!! or, atleast this is how it feels like. he say he does it because he love me, and I belive him. only problem is, I dont trust grownups so he don’t know he’s making everything worse. I’ve decided to wait till autumn to take the decision wether I am gonna kill myself, run away, or just keep living in hell. btw I’m kutting myself now…..
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Hey what are you talking about your English is amazing:) I understand how you feel my dad doesn’t understand either in fact he makes it worse!! Like the time I first cut myself he made me wanna die even more. I wanted to write a letter telling him his life would be better without me and he can spit on my grave maybe that will make him happy! Hey we should talk we could help eachother:)
thank’s alot. yeh, it would be great to talk! I’v finally started trusting people again, but I still don’t trust my dad…. and if we talk we might become friends as well, I still don’t have so many friends and I’d love to get some more^^ I like helping other people to, it kinda makes me feel usefull, the only reason I’m still alive is that I’ve got a friend who allmost killed herself. she says that if I die, she’ll kill herself, and I don’t want that to happen. You’re idea about writing a letter might work, but I think I might write something quite different. and again, thank’s alot!!
Same here I have a friend who wants to kill herself too and she said if I go she goes too I already feel like were friends your a sweet person with a big heart that’s been hurt. We should talk:)
I wonder, how are we gonna get the opportunity to talk? I’ve got msn, but I don’t think I’ll put it here…. have any ideas??
Ummm I have no idea I think of something soon though
Dont end your life.
May you find your own purpose in life, and may it be everything you’ve ever wanted, and more. Cheers.
to emogirl1995. I’ll give yeh my friend’s msn, and she can give u mine x3
her msn; martinallkk@hotmail.com
K I sent here one yay can’t wait
I haven’t got any invitation yet D:
Try to add meh again..
Do u want 2 talk 2 us cuz I’d b glad 2 🙂
my friend martina haven’t got an invitation yet so I’ll give you my msn instead. majaelise@loymen.no
I do think martina would like to talk as well, I’ll ask her