What I think.

I really don’t know what to do anymore… its not that I’m really giving up, I just don’t know what to do now. I have been thinking about life, and what to do. I want to live happily, and I think about the future, and I know how I’ll feel and yes I feel like that sometimes but other times I just go down and it all seems to slip through my fingers. I just don’t know what to do right now. So I’ll just keep sitting around hoping no praying I can get better, you see I know why and the reason for everything now, I just don’t know what to do. I’m really praying that the physiatrist will know what to do. But I have to wait till 5 days after school ends… :/ I guess we will see, but in the meantime I have to wait and its really hard. The end