Okay well I know I’m young but i constantly have this thought I shouldnt be here anymore. I try to be happy, I try to be myself but deep down I just feel like being alone and crying. I have no idea what I want anymore. I see myself going nowhere In life. Ive thought about killing myself and everytime I try to I cant bring myself to do it because I think of how other people would feel. I dont know I’m just ranting, I’m sorry.
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dont apologize, thats what this sites for, ranting, getting it all out
I know how it feels. I’ve been going through a lot of the same stuff as you. Actually just a few days ago, I got yelled at for not being happy by one of my best friends.
I know how you feel, I often try and get some happier people I know to help me for a while, I’d say, tell me the reasons life is good, when your born, have pain, get a job, pain and die. She said: Life is like a road, just enjoy the ride, your born, so just have fun with it. (or something like that) I know she is right, but if you have small things to keep you going before the problem is sorted out, Im sure it will help. Hope it all gets better Xx.
Dear I Don’t Know:
I would listen to the kindly, considerate part of yourself that does not want to commit suicide because it would upset the people around you. It has a life-giving message for you.
If you are here on this earth, it is likely that you are here to carry out some task or purpose. Consider giving yourself some time to discover what it is.
It is very natural for teen and 20something young people to feel unhappy because they feel that they are not going anywhere, have no “place” in the world and to start feeling like they “don’t belong here.”
They are (quite naturally) impatient to learn what it is that they are supposed to be doing, and sometimes feel blank or empty or sad or lonely because their life purpose has not become clear yet.
But one’s life purpose is not always revealed quickly to a person.
Only a few people recognize their life purpose in their teens.
Since you are at the beginning of your life, you still have a few years to discover why you are here. As you gradually discover what you are here to do, you will take classes, join groups, meet new friends, etc., who will share your interests and outlook.
Then you will feel less lonely.
With regard to the suicidal thoughts — consider getting a counselor or therapist, and possibly getting some anti-depressant medication if they recommend it.
Your sadness is understandable, but it is getting too intense and disrupting your life. It is likely becoming a serious depression. A counselor or therapist can help you deal with the negative thoughts, and work with you to get on a more positive path, so your life will be less painful and have more joy.
Cordially,
Struggling to Survive (been there)