Dont care anymore

Well, i can’t really say much here. you already have the mindset that once its gone, things will get better. But that is not the case. I have not aclue who you are or what has happened to you. But i will give you my email, and i would love to hear why you feel like this, and i want you to elaborate. I want you to feel the suns rays of tomorrow, and not the deep coldness of your coffin.

A failed attempt? Well, the only thing i will say here is that i am glad that it failed. I believe you are meant to live. Not anyone else, but yourself. I believe that you can achieve this; over come all these hardships placed before your knees. I want to help you overcome these obstacles. Iwant you to know, you are worth everything.

For the therapy, i encourage you continue them. But i have no idea what goes on during your therapy. I do hope you confide in them, EVERYTHING you feel and why you do. Your therapy should help you, if it isn’t working out the way you want it to, then as a suggestion, you could look somewhere else.

Whether you want to give up on life or all the hardships is soley up to you. There is no place for me to tellyou no. I can understand your pain, but i cannot feel it. I want you to know, that i feel that suicide is not for you.

You are a soldier. You have come this far, you have overcome the savages of hell. I would like and hope that you continue on. I am willing to continue being there, only if you would like me to.

I honestly feel that maybe you do care. You are just too numb that you can’t feel your feelings for the things you adore. The pain you have (that continues to rage) outweighs all your sources of coping. I am positive there are some things you do care about, don’t let this enormous amount of anxiety, pain, etc. cloud your eyes. There is good in you, there is good in everything.

And i dont think you are being selfish. Sometimes you need to think of yourself before anybody else. And this is a common problem everyone faces. You dont have to care what happens to everyone else when you decide to commit to suicide. But its something that you should consider. When you do commit to suicide, you unleash your pain unto others. And that, is a selfish act.

I hope that you do find a way to cope with this depression. I want you to remember this: Right now, you have two states. The state of Feeling Suicidal, and the state of “Commitint Suicide”. When you feel suicidal, you always have the choice to turn back, and fix everything. But when you are in the act of commiting suicide, you are unable to turn back. And when you have finaly died, you will have died with no peace in mind, and your soul will have to carry on the one thing it only knew: unhappyness.

I only said this beause you said youwere both afraid to live and die. These are both normal feelings I assure you. Everyone is scared to stumble upon the wonders of tomorrow. And everyone is afraid to stumble upon the afterlife, debating if it exists.

I dont want you to hurt anymore either. I am willin to help you get through this. I want you to contact me, and let me know how your truly feel. I want to get to know you in order to help.

silly.snowball@yahoo.com

remember, the choice is yours. please choose wisely.