I’m having overwhelming urges to OD tonight. I have the sleeping pills. I cleaned up my room. I’m shaking and my heart is racing, even after taking 2 klonopins. I don’t know what is wrong with me. I feel this need to do it. Now. I need help. I’m not sure what I should do. I don’t want to be locked up again. I don’t think I want to die. I don’t know what I want. Maybe just to sleep. For a long time.
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I’m not going to tell you not to, because I hardly believe myself that life is worth living. But because you said that you don’t think you want to die, I offer you this: http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/
– and then also the knowledge that even if you do just go to sleep this evening, there will always be tomorrow to decide.
Hey buddy,
Please don’t do it. Please stay alive.
Also, sleeping pill OD is a very dangerous undertaking. It’s a slow and gruesome death, where the internal organs are slowly destroyed over several days, so please, don’t do that.
I know I have no right to interfere, but I seriously think you sound like a good person in the few lines you have written, and I’m sure you have potential.
Is there someone you can talk to about these urges face-to-face? Is there someone who’ll miss you? Please give it an extra thought. Maybe someone can help you calm down?
Write me @ muspelhem@hotmail.com if you like.
All the best 🙂
Slow down and think about what you’re doing. It’s like what I tell everyone else. THINK. You may not be a Christian and I wouldn’t consider myself the strongest and holiest guy out there, but I know that what’s giving you that strong urge are some serious demons. Talk to someone, and talk to them now. If I were you, I would just take a deep breath, cry it out, talk to God, and let everything else go. Think about else you can do, but killing yourself is not that thing. Please, don’t throw your life away, because its not something you can ever get back. Be strong. BE STRONG. Take advice from the Savior.
I really hope that I’m not too late. PLEASE don’t do this! Believe me, I know how hard it is when you’re trapped in that dark place and you can’t seem to find the strength or the will to save yourself. The fact that you’re unsure about your decision, and especially that you’ve reached out to people for help shows that you have hope and that killing yourself is not what you really want to do.
muspelhem is right; I’ve heard of many people attempting suicide by overdosing on sleeping pills, and it is a very bad way to go, if it even kills you, which it could just make you suffer terribly and leave major permanent damage to your body. I think that talking to others that know exactly what you’re going through would help you a lot. Please give it a try… you are among friends here, each of us bearing the emotional scars of our life’s struggles, and if you look you will find that we are one in the same.
We are here for you and want to help! I myself am a survivor of suicide and I think I can help you if you let me. Please write me at xcreature_of_the_nightx@hotmail.com Please give it a chance, things can change in just an instant. You’re not alone, and you will always have a friend in me that cares if nothing else. Put away that bottle of pills and write back to me okay?
i know what you want, and it’s the same thing that we all want. you want peace, you want to serve a meaningful purpose, you want to in some way or another love and be loved. you’re already loved, and i can help you with the next few steps.
please write to me too. my contact info is at skull09.net
i want to do everything i can for you – i don’t want to just talk, i want to help you.
take care of yourself please.
thank you for reading
Hey everyone…I ended up taking the pills, but talking to my therapist too and she convinced me to go to the ER. So I’m ok now, still feeling down, but physically ok.
Hey. Relieved to hear that you are physically ok. Are you still feeling down?
Yeah. Are you still blue? I was hoping and wishing you wouldn’t do it. But I’m glad you spoke to your therapist. I agree that you seem like a really nice person. I don’t think you sould die. But I non the less understand. I’ve been there too. And I still don’t know what I want.