I never really done anything like this before, but lately I don’t know what else to do. I’ve had thoughts of killing myself before, but now they’re actualÂ considerations. Its over this girl, my ex, and it’s all my fault. I am just so mad at myself for the things I’ve done. I miss this girl so much and the worst part is I know she doesn’t care about me at all anymore. The feeling is unbearable, constantly anxious, filled with anxiety and this coldness inside of you. Imagine that for a year straight with no rest, no breaks. And its still not over. I keep thinking over and over again how did I let myself feel this way over some girl but at the same time I understand cause its not just come girl. I keep telling myself time will make it better, in time I will feel better. But it seems everyday it just gets worse and worse. I can’t hold on much longer and pretty soon I see myself giving up. I just wished I could do something to make things better with this girl. And that’s what frustrates me so much that there is absolutely nothing I can do about it. I am tired of this feeling, I just want it to all be over. I’m sorry.