I wish i was outside looking in
i wish i could drop my pain i wish i could live a normal life, i wish i could hold together like everyone else i wish i could be strong
but all i am is weak full of nothing as i weep
i am suppose to be moving on suppose to be having fun healing you could say
its like everyone has abandoned me
i am diseased and alone
you dont understand you dont know
ill be fine you say and i might be maybe
my heart broken in a million pieces never whole again
my body rebelling toward me
and all that seems to come is tears neverending lonely tears
i am so fucked up right now in such a miserable exsitance right now
i try to tell them i try to be happy i try to smile
i try…
the world won’t stop it never does for anyone
i am stuck in a neverending battle can’t sleep, can’t eat, can’t feel can’t live
My days are lonely, i wish for work everyday so i dont have to be home with my tears
so i dont have to sit and confront my mind
so i dont have to think of you
so i dont have to think of your kisses your hugs
so i dont have to think of cuddling
because i have nothing anymore
just space a hole a void
you go on and forget me i was never worth it anyway
i am not worth anyones tears, smiles, pain, time
i am nothing
i try to be sweet
i try to be…but what good does it do no one appriciates anything anymore
someone love me
i cant make it
let me know your there
i say dont worry about me silly you have better things to do
which you do if you waste your time on me you will never be happy ill just push you to breaking again
so be happy and know i love you
as always i can never get away from it
and i ll move on ill live
but no one said ill be happy about it
find me beautiful find me lovely just find me
i want someone who will treat me with respect who will love me for who i am not for who i change to be
i truely miss you but ill be fine you know i cant stay down for long
i live a never ending wave and it contiues to wash over me
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Thank you, thank is exactly how I am feeling right now as my husband is divorcing me after 35 years. I am so sad.