PLEASE READ THIS!!! Last night i was told to “go away, stay out of my relationship and ur creeping me and my gf out”. Well for 1 his “gf” is my friend and he sucks at lieng, 2 im not in his relationship stuff in fact i dont give a shit about it. And so i said “fine good byeee forever”.Today i saw him at the ice rink, and i thought, “why am i afraid of him, hes not nice, doesn’t have a heart and doesn’t care. So why do i? That second i stood up straighter started acting more me deleted his numbers and blocked it erased all the good and bad memory’s about him. And ignored him starring at me and yelling my name i felt stronger and more in-control, i dont want to die today or tomorrow because some how that made me happy i don’t know how to explain it but its true. And technically what i’m trying to say is if something is bothering you then fix it some how fix it no matter what it takes just do it.
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What you did was great but it is obvious you did it out of anger and you are still riding on that energy. Sure you can say you don’t feel angry etc, but I can see clearly that’s what it is. The way you’re describing this event is clearly from a wounded soul and unclear mind. When a person feels grand/powerful, it’s not always a positive feeling, even though it feels like that (hence why so many power crazed people in the world). I respect what you did and I am pleased that you have this moment of feeling powerful, and I sincerely hope that it lasts for you. However, the chances are, that feeling could very well manifest itself into another feeling and probably a low to counterpart the high. Because I strongly suspect that the REAL problem is not this guy at all, but something else inside of you which you are not addressing, so the mechanism you are using right now to further ignore the real problem is to swat this man away like a fly. The truth is, if this man really was ‘nothing’ to you, and he could really be simply swatted away, you wouldn’t even have noticed that you had done it, and you certainly wouldn’t be talking about it either, or, for that matter, gaining any power at all from the event.
It’s rarely as simple as ‘go away – it’s gone’ if that was the case no-one would ever be miserable.
I relize what your saying and i know that too but just saying that makes everything feel better to me!